Another year older

Well yesterday was my birthday. Didn't really seem like it. No one to celebrate with minus my family, but it wasn't anything special by any means. I was surprised how many people actually remembered, but was disappointed by those that forgot who shouldn't have. Good thing it's me, and I could care less. It doesn't bother me. But halfway through cooking my birthday dinner I realized something....this is the first time since I started dating that I didn't have a boyfriend during my birthday (which means the last time I didn't have a boyfriend when it was my birthday was way back in the day, 8th grade!!! How crazy is that?!?!?! Just all of a sudden hit me cuz I was thinking why the hell am I cooking my own birthday dinner?! Today felt like any other day and it was nothing special. Birthday celebration will be this weekend!!! Plus it's also my first Homecoming as an alumni!!! :) So I'm super excited to see everyone and party. In addition I have birthday plans with one of my best friends who's birthday was a week prior to mine, but we haven't celebrated since she is a senior this year and I graduated and was outta town to the East coast as usual Thursday through Sunday! I know busy me still been traveling tons! I know I should work on getting a job, but I haven't even looked. Been working on my grad. school applications....picked out 6 schools I'm applying to. Finished up my personal statement and worked on the essays or short answer stupid stuff that is on them. So I'm almost all finished up there and I'm excited about that! Then I will go job hunting, been putting my life on hold in a sense cuz i needed the escape. I needed to just be all alone. I'm sorry that I stopped talking to pretty much everyone. Just the way I am. I like to be alone. I like having my own life separate from everyone. But it felt odd not to share my birthday with someone special. Although last year I was severely disappointed in my boyfriend, who got way too trashed for homecoming and didn't make it out with my friends and I for my birthday dinner, and then drinking, cake, and presents back at one of my friend's places. Also on my birthday, I met a guy who turned out to show me sides of me I didn't know I had. He kept me outta trouble and out of relationships which ironically I thank him for. He'll never know how much I appreciate the relationship him and I have. Ironically I saw him this weekend. We sorta talked things out...aka....not really but he admitted quickly that he was wrong, and then kissed me so we couldn't talk about it. Typical him, I actually never thought we'd talk again. But his "smooth" apology doesn't cut it....I don't quite believe him...I know better not to. He's keeping tabs on me....I think it's funny. He knew I was outta town this weekend, that it was my b-day, and a bunch of other stuff....but he thinks I'm seeing someone...I just laughed and told him it was none of his business. I guess that's for me to know and you to find out. ;) hehehe!

That's all for now....I had written some other posts, but I seem to have misplaced them in the transferring of documents between disks and computer...when I find them I'll upload them cuz I wrote a few entries and never got around to posting them...so blog is gonna be a bit outta sorts for the next few posts....don't fret....I'll be back in order by next week!!! Well...Happy Birthday to ME!!! :P