Too Many Boys

Too many boys in my life it seems like! AHHH!! I keep meeting guys or getting to know them or guy friends fall for me.....it's actually getting on my nerves. I hate being so pursued right now. To make it very clear at this current junction in my life I do NOT, I reapeat, I do NOT want a boyfriend right now! Honestly, I'm going back to Chi-town in two weeks from yesterday. Going on vaction almost immediately. Then working on my observation hours for Field Experience this semester and finishing up that homework and such! Then I'll probably head out to Akron to visit my brother for a few days and bring him some stuff from home. Then I'll go look for a job and work on applications for grad. school! Do you see any time in there for a boy, cuz I sure don't! I just don't want one right now! It's ME time only until I settle down and figure out what the hell I'm doing! When I do, then I'll go back to being open about relationships, but until then, this girl is not interested even if the two guys who I really do like were to ask me out, I'd say no on the spot. It's not that I let guys guide my life by any means, it's just I need to be alone right now to get down to business and get this life of mine going somewhere!

My rant about boys has been set off by the constant IM's, phone calls, text messages, e-mails, and actual conversations with these guys. There's a handful of them. The one if my friend who will never give up on me, so he tells me, but he hasn't a chance in the world anymore! This friend's best friend has been calling/texting me, but he doesn't know that, he's back at home right now! He came to visit here a few weeks ago to see our mutual friend and asked me for my phone number! Then another guy I met at a party a month ago now, nice guy, we hang out about once a week cuz he works 14 hrs a day monday-saturday! So Sunday is our night to chill out together which has been fun! I have another guy who im's, facebook messages me, emails me, texts and calls me, but that's been going on since the beginning of the semester! We hang out occasionally, i'm pretty busy and he's on the baseball team with my good friend (who is the first one listed who likes me). Oh wait, that one gets better because they are both starting pitchers....you figure out the rest from there! Already had a major incident with both of them randomly showing up at my house uninvited one night..that was a Saturday night from HELL! And that is just me starting...do you see why I'm currently annoyed!

All I want is some space! I don't im, text, call, etc...with them first! They start it and I don't always respond either! Half the time I'm sitting right at my computer and I ignore them! There's two guys I wouldn't mind talking to, the two that I actually like! But the part that sucks is that I haven't really talked to either much lately because I've been too busy with school or out with friends!

Graduation is May 13th!!!! I can't wait!! I'm excited!!! But so much to do in the mean time and I'm sad I'm leaving here! Wish I didn't have to move out of my house, I like my current room and being here and doing stuff here even if it is boring! I have a lot of things that I like to do alone here, running, field work, doing to the lock and dam, hiking, driving around, etc.! I just like doing things on my own more so than with other people! I like being alone to some extent, more than the typical person! You guys know me, i'm a bit of a loner, but hey i love a good cup of tea (ice or hot) and a good book sitting outside or curled up in a blanket in a comfy chair! :)

Today has been long...been tutoring at Senior all day today 7:30-3:00!!! Been working on homework since then pretty much! Took a break to write this obviously! Anyways, tonight i have a softball game and then my normal swim at 8:30 to visit Charlie who is lifeguarding! Well, better get back to the books!!! Almost done with school! YEAH!!! :)