Decided to stop being lazy and finally recap what's going on with me!

Well, things have been crazy for me! School has been insane! I'm still working on my lovely thesis! Eek...I of all people changed my hard deadline from this Friday to next Friday! Next Friday I call it quits on going through all my tardigrades! Then it's analysis and paper churning out time! Taking the GRE next week oh and my comprehensive Biology Test to graduate, which I must pass mind you, is in three weeks! AHH!! So much on my plate! This semester has been pretty comparable to last fall, but this year there's so much more going on outside my school life!

What's going on in the guy front! Ha good question, but right now I can't comment on it because of the people who know have this. All I say say is that I dated a guy for two weeks. I doubt that I posted that here, but those that knew me well, knew that the next guy I was gonna date was not gonna be my usual guy! Guess what he wasn't in the best way possible for the most part! But, sometimes extreme difference can't be overlooked and not knowing people well doesn't always make the best couple. That's all I'm gonna comment about that since I know he can read this. Best to keep things to myself, might mean me making a new journal out in cyberspace somewhere! lol! Not that I need one more, three is enough, considering this is the only one I've kept up with sorta!

I'm really looking forward to November 17th! Like I'm jumping up and down....why might you ask! Why might I be so excited about that day! Because Beau come into town! And I'm doubling with Sam and him that day! :) I miss hanging with those two and our dinner, movies, games, etc! I miss last year's Tuesday nights so much this year! Tuesday was the best! Tuesday meant home cooked meal by Sam, Bridget, or me, we all took turns cooking dinner for our boys! It was a nice thing to do! The six of us, well five if my boy couldn't make it cuz he had night class! :( After dinner, it was homework in the library for about an hour to two hours! Then was my favorite part of the night! It was drinking card games! I so miss our low key having fun nights! They were the best! It was roommate bonding and bonding with the guys! I miss those times so much! I really miss those days! Things were so different then, my life isn't the same then as it is now! I'm not the person I was then as I am now. Not that I'm a completely different person, but things change. Back to November 17th...well the guy who I asked first and wanted to go with is being all iffy! He's like i don't want to be second fiddle! Whatever! Didn't know he was playing second fiddle....to who?! Not that he would know, but I don't think I've given him a real reason for one second for him to think that he is second fiddle, or any fiddle. I didn't know I toyed with people like so! As I recall, I'm not the heart breaker in this case, well not heart breaker really, but you get the gist. It was his choice in the end. He doesn't understand me yet, and I'm getting to understand him,but I don't know him yet! It takes so much time to really know a person! Anyways, I was really excited for him to come with me, especially cuz I asked the last day we were dating, but I thought he wouldn't still want to go! But now, he's like I'll go if you want me to! Then he's like I'm not sure it's right! I think he forgot that one of my guy friends might be coming to visit, so I might just take this guy as purely a friend with me! Point is, I could ask someone else. Last time I checked, I haven't, so I'm confused who he gets off being like I'm second fiddle. I don't think he has any idea really, and I'm not about to clue him in on my blog. Maybe he's first fiddle, maybe second, maybe third, maybe some other number....then again maybe he's no fiddle! Last time I checked I didn' tknow i fiddled around with people like that! But in this case, fiddle means interst, the guy I like the most! So he I guess he's saying that he went from first to second, I think that's a very poor assumption! Espeically after this weekend and chatting! I don't get off how he thinks that for one second!

I have a feeling I mad him a bit mad and confused with me tonight! First off, Joe was there! Joe is one of my few friends that I have had since first semester frosh year! So I've known him for about four years! I know him really well! Like we hung out and partied a ton and way too hard second semester frosh year! We've always chatted online a lot! Him and I reminisce so much! But tonight playing pool we were having a good time chatting! We know each other really well, we're always chatting and I think nothing of it because he knows me pretty well! No he doesn't know every deal of my life at all, but we get along and have a fun! He's creepy sometimes, but over all i don't think twice about talking to him and sharing laughs and jokes with him! It's normal! It's been normal for four whole years! But Aaron doesn't know that! Somehow i think that makes him mad that I'm so relaxed with Joe and not with him! I don't think he understands or knows that I'm good friends with Joe for four years now! If i knew him for four years the same way i know Joe he wouldn't think twice about it! I'm quite and shy, some times I just don't know what to say to Aaron. It's not like he's the one who's asking me question and what not or comes up and starts a real conversation instead of trying to get me to say What?! I do like hanging out with Aaron, he just doesn't know me well! Yeah I'm defensive because he makes me that way! He is defensive too, and I'll keep on the defensive if he's going to be that way with me! But I'm joking around and I don't care like 90% of the time! But tonight he thought I was so mad, and I was just trying to tell them something, but whatever! God forbid anyone actually listen to me! Like I knew the directions better then them, why?! Becuase I drive that way home all the time!!!! And I was just trying to help, but no sorry they knew better than me! Whatever! I wouldn't have spoken up if I knew I was wrong, but I knew I was right so whatever! It's like fine...I won't talk because you think i get mad! If they knew me better, I hate to be wrong! It's not that hard to see! I mean I work hard at school, you don't want to be wrong in school! No one likes to be wrong, but I wouldn't put up a fight about it if I thought I was wrong! And i KNEW i was right! But whatever, it's like they make me annoyed! They don't know me, but hey she must be wrong! My friends that know me, and know me well, i'm more right than wrong! I have some of them pretty much who are like whatever I saw must be true based off of how things go!

I'm most socialable this year! A lot of people are supirsed, not that it matters! But I love the comments made to me about oh I didn't know you liked to have fun! WTF, who doesn't like to have fun?! I mean really...I like to have fun, who doesn't! Senior year has been interesting. New year has brought a new group of friends, who I really enjoy! I hope we're still friends after being dumped by one of their good friends. I really like them and are so much fun! They aren't lame like other people I know! They are a nice fresh breath of air, I think that's why I like a certain boy too! He's different, and I want/need something different in my life! I don't need a boyfriend though, I guess i'll make that distinction! He's never really needed me, I'm not the girl who takes his breath away or makes his heart skip a beat! I'm just not and I know it. If I am/was, I'd be thoroughly shocked, but I'm pretty certain that is the case.

It's about 3:30 AM....I'll finish this up tomorrow! But yeah for very late nigth chats!!! :P