Happy 4th of July!!!

Tonight was a good day hanging out with people. We drank, grilled out, played volleyball, basketball, pool stuff, hung around the pool, etc, it was a good time! Went to Four Lakes to sit on the top of the hill to watch all the firework displays in the area! That was awesome! You can see about 7+ firework shows from 9PM and on, espeically since Lisle's who is the closest to there does theirs at about 10ish! So that was awesome hanging out chatting, drinking, watching fireworks! :) Afterwards, we came back and lit off a bunch more fireworks over at my friend's house! Had a grand ol' time!
Watching the fireworks made me remember the last time I did that! Made me miss having a boyfriend. Not that i missed him, I just missed having someone there! Someone to snuggle up against, someone to lend me their warmth of being close to them, someone to kiss me softly under the fireworks, someone to laugh with, someone to share good time with! I may miss all those things, but it doesn't matter. None of it makes me miss/want Brian back, even though he keeps telling me he wants me back and made a mistake. He needs to deal with it, i've moved on! He doesn't get a second chance so the same problems can occur once more, I've had enough, he hasn't changed enough or matured to understand that I guess! Being back with him is the last thing I want to do, so i won't! There is no point.
I've moved on, but it's nice to have a boyfriend. Someone who is there for you, to spend time with, to share moments with, etc. It's normal to want to have someone in your life that way. But at the same time i don't want that, if i did i wouldn't have made some choices that I have in the past few weeks! But irreguardless about how i currently feel about having a boyfriend doesn't matter. The idea is always nice, but in reality, i'd prefer to be single for awhile. It's nice to go out and have fun and not have to worry about anything! I don't have any regrets and nothing to hold me back from having fun! I really like being single and i'm enjoying every second of it!
But there's nights I wish i had someone there with me! Someone to hang out with, drink with, watch movies, go to dinner, and to fall asleep with. There was just something perfect the way me and brian fit together that I miss. I always feel asleep with his arms wrapped around me and awoke exactly that way. It was always a great feeling and warmth. Someone who kissed me softly good morning and squeezed me ever so slightly in his time to wake up way he always did since he always woke up first! I guess I miss that the most about him. I miss curling up and falling asleep next to him on the weekend only of course, if u knew him u'd understand why. But still, I've never felt safer in my life then the moment i found myself in his arms falling asleep. No one else in the past has ever done that, but we seemed to fit together. I guess it's hard to explain, I miss those things, but i don't miss him. I doubt that makes sense to any of you, but it makes perfect sense to me!
Anyways, Happy Fourth of July!!! :)